A long post about camp is coming.

I haven't been much of myself these two days. Only a few people know the reason and that's only because of confidentiality issues..although regardless, it doesn't even matter that much because it's just one of those things that unless you've been there yourself, you won't understand.

Sometimes I still find myself in this post-camp culture shock, especially when it comes to shopping, getting ready for my Hamilton house, sorting out my timetable mess. Some people, especially, has really gotten on my nerves with their narrow-minded, one-dimensional way of thinking. I was probably one of them too before camp but now I just want to shake them and yell, there's more to life!!

This entire past week was filled with bad drinking incidents. I now know what people mean when they say they drink to escape...I think that was the mindset I had especially last night, after I found out the news, mixed in with a sense of rebellion, an urge to do something un-Pennylike. Thankfully nothing went out of control...I held everything in but did do some things that I regret doing. Although I still haven't drank to the point where I don't remember what happened, I now know how vulnerable alcohol can make one feel, not to mention my tolerance isn't high to begin with.

I'm finally getting the keys to my Hamilton house tomorrow...and we'll begin to repaint my room in the evening. It's quite exciting actually (and overwhelming), to think about. the colour hasn't been finalized yet however...I'm leaning towards either pale green/yellow?

I don't know how to end this off properly, so until next time...


Penny